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And I guess the only reason I chose Lisa, out of all of the
other girls I’ve talked to on the Internet (many of whom were
just as fascinating or better) was because she was the only one
I never lied to. I never faked who I was to her and truth be
told, that was primarily because I was just being too lazy that
day to come up with a new character and put on a mask… But
still…
Why go to New York for her?
Yelling at Myself
Why do all this?
Why can’t I just approach a girl in real life and be normal
for once? I’m sure there are girls out there who wouldn’t mind
the fact that I have issues that prevent me from being
physically intimate because of past traumas. I mean… girls
don’t prioritize sex over everything right?
Or is that just a guy thing?
Well according to the porn I watch and erotica I read, they
all want to fuck just as badly as guys do, so I’m screwed.
…
Ugh.
You fucker.
God I hate myself.
Seriously.
What’s wrong with me?
I mean…
Jesus fucking Christ, why did I have to be molested as a child?
Yeah, fuck it.
I said it.
I don’t even care anymore.
CAUSE SERIOUSLY.
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