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Seriously.
Why do I do this myself?
Why do I put myself through this shit?
You got touched when you were a kid, so what?
Everybody gets touched as a child—get over it.

Be normal for once in your goddamned life because I’m tired
of this man.

And I know you are too.
So please…

… Let’s just stop this before things get messy.
Before we do more things that we’d regret.

Or might not even be able to regret.
Please.

I’m begging you bud.
Stay sane.
Be normal.

Hibernation

We arrived at her town.

But.

I didn’t go to her place.
I didn’t meet up with her.
And I haven’t spoken to her since.
I got to her town, but took a bus home as soon as I can,
feeling neither defeated nor more knowledgeable of myself.

I spoke to no one about this trip for a while, tried to forget
it. Pretend like it never happened.

But just like how I deal with most of my other problems I
started telling it to people in a joking manner hoping that it

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