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my eyes are closed-

i have not the strength to see-

you have possessed my weak will

to survive. i am a servant

tonight and you are driving

thoughts in and out

of my fragile mind. nothing so powerful

has controlled me before- you bite

like.a mosquito, sapping every drop

of life from my innocent body

and tell me to be still and silent. IV. Of

do you fear that i am lying no
iwill not
underneath your heart, that i will cry speak tomorrow
or ever
and brush your fantasies away? of tonight
my word refined
yIeoauvl.hnagvneocthlainimgneedssmteo at this hinouthre' hazy dawn, is pure
usher
V. Kindness
you steal my midnights
My back gingerly pressed against your own,
for your own, chaining them in silvery my breathing matches yours each now and then,
awaking now together, but alone,
lust, drowning me in the dead sea I'm wishing you would speak my name again.
Instead, you smile, turn, and face the wall,
of feathers and the lingering air of you ... so gentle, like an infant in your sleep.
I should have known an innocence would fall
upon the floor last night, lay prone, and weep.
But- I can not ask for any other
recognition much beyond a smile-
I'm just a friend. I don't compare to her,
the one you seek. I watch you for a while,
unsure of which of us is more the child.
(I could have saved you- if I were allowed,)

Epilogue

you possess
five watches and two
clocks
and none of them keep time-

Courtney Risch