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Tazhae Williams

The American standard
169 to 202
Overweight
203 or more
Obese

When I was younger
I watched America’s next top model religiously
Toccora Jones
The FIRST plus sized model to step foot on the show
Plus-sized model…
Toccora was only a size 9…

Growing up,
I wanted to be a size two like those girls
To be pretty like the models
To be desired
But I was a size nine just like her
I was “plus sized” just…like…toccora

Imagine how I feel now.
I look in the mirror and see an unlovable belly
Too many stretch marks
A crooked smile
And eyes a color that I never liked

I wished for guys to find me as beautiful as they did the girls
that they worshiped in porn
To think I was pretty
And to call me gorgeous
Granted, I still got attention,
Just not the attention that I wanted

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